The mornings . Actually, every morning . Every morning is a great chance to rebuild your career, a new journey, perhaps a new destination. What happened yesterday is a history in the book of life , what happens now is actually a thing.  Well "a thing" means , a new idea or a new life , when I fail to find a perfect word for what I think or what my heart is intending at , I simply use this word " a thing", and it goes well with every sentences.  So where was I... yeah gotcha , Morning... mornings are always a treat to watch , the sky turning it's colour to adjust the reddish sun who's struggling to keep open his droopy eyes , the birds , the cool breeze , newspaper boy , tea .... perfect...

I wish just not the morning, but the entire day is like a magical world, but no, it's life . Here, miracles happen in the name of unexpected events . No one can be happy entire day , there'll be anything that brings the bitter memories of every past unhappy moments like a wave and leaves its bitter taste in mouth for a moment until we are capable of snapping out of it .

Are humans life like this only? My world of questions would never end. I'm finding it hard to cope up with this idea of not asking questions and only obeying. Am I an obedient kid or student or friend or anyone? Nope, the answer is expected yet unexpected. I'm a simple girl you'd find anywhere, whom you won't remember as well. 

I always thought so low of me , just because of my insecurities . Now, I don't know when I started to feel insecure about everything.  I never knew that it could bestow me with unaccountable loss . Loss , what ? I have no idea . I have always been a wallflower . My world started with books and me and ended with it. Maybe I felt secure with books. 

Well , this is my story , my life , my delusional self .

I never overcame anything to inspire anyone , it's just about my own self , my insecurities, my thoughts, and my way of living . Not everyone finds a a life as such , not everyone want a life as such,  I'm an exception in all means .

Insecurities... small word , right but has major part in everyone's life.  Some accept it and live their life happily , and some find it hard to understand and live a shell life.  I belong to the second category, and I can relate to some out of their reading this . I won't tell you it's okay because it's not . But it's not definitely a major issue if only you let yourself accept it . Hey , it's not that easy. I can feel you . I have been in your shoes, maybe still I'm in.

So yeah,  let me take you on a roller coaster ride with me .

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That's it for today

Signing off

Ashwani